the juice...

we all people have different sides of personality. they laways say that the grass is greener the on the other side. and you know what i found out today... the shopaholic in me finally woke up! its all because of the "power of the card" yes! you read it correctly.... a have a visa card! how great!

you know me for being responsible... and hey, i am responsible... responsible for paying almost 700 pesos on the 15th day of september when the bill arrives! hahaha! its okay... well, i never buy anything for myself... not until now! i bought 2 new shirts.... dont ask where.... ill tell you anyway... one from penshop and the other from human...

so lets set aside all the shopaholic stuff... heres the juice... well, you know iv been reading the book alex gave me right? so everytime i read it, it pains me to continue because of the insights to ponder... it talks about pride, conflict and humility.... gosh!!! what a burden! its just that i love my ego... hahaha!!! the author say that victory comes from surrender and peace always has a price tag... sometimes it costs us our pride!! darn!

ok.. so forget the book.... here's a statement a girl told me.... "letting go is hardest not in parting ways but in accepting reality" i will not elaborate it anymore... well, she has a point.. cant argue with that! lets leave all the bitterness behind and continue with the juice...

we know that on october 2, cecile will celebrate her birthday, so iv been looking for a nice outfit for the occasion. i found this really quite and simple red dress and i think thats what i will wear... i have the power of the card, dont i?! hahaha!!!

a certain girl confessed something to me... she said she cant understand what she feels.... and she read her journal (she wrote it last year) and she remembered her words before.... YOU DONT ALWAYS HAVE TO BE STRONG.... what you need is a support system if you are expreriencing hard times... she told me it took a lot of courage on her part to say that.... what a girl!!!

well, if youre wondering if hows my school, its ok.. tons of report, early sociology finals, speeches both in filipino and english and a boring play! i wonder why im still alive!! hehehe!!!

as for my last statement.... i say... get on with life and bear the pain.... if i would be given another chance to live, ill choose not to change anything i did because these things made me who i am right now, and i like who i am... even with the imperfections... this is who i am...